Let's reflect a bit, shall we?

First off, the canucks lost tonight and are down 3-2 in a best of seven series. I'm hardcore bummed. If we lose on Monday, I think I seriously might cry.

Still not working (waiting on some woman to go on Mat leave) so that sucks, BUT, I've been enjoying doing some yardwork with my gramma. I'm having a big backyard party for my 20th if everything in the yard gets done, so that's my incentive. Hurray

Now that that's out of the way, let's move on to better things. I'M GOING TO BE PUBLISHED IN ONE OF KWANTLEN'S ENGLISH TEXTBOOKS!!! I got an email from my professor the other morning. It went as follows:

"Hey Melissa:
I was wondering if you would mind if I used your ad analysis in the course manual for my future sections of English 1100? Of the ad analyses I graded last term, yours definitely stood out as a strong, well-developed study, not just in your class, but in both my sections of English1100. On reflecting on ways that I might better help my future students, I thought that I might offer them instructional models of successful essays that we could talk about in class. Yours would serve very well. I made a photocopy of the essay because you did so well on it. I'd really appreciate having you back in the fall for English1202 as well. The strength of your analytical skills was clear to me in 1100; you have a skill for depth of interpretation that will serve you well in 1202. Do try to relax this summer, though; I know you've been busy.
Cheers,
John"

This made me so so happy! I worked my ass of in that class and it's paying off. My work will now be immortalized in a Kwantlen textbook! My whole semester was awesome. I got all B's and A's in all my classes. Makes me feel really good!

I've been on a couple dates lately and am enjoying getting back into the dating game. Last date I went on was 2-ish weeks ago. We went for dinner in Vancouver and then went and watched the Canucks game. After that was over, we just sat and got to talking until 1am haha. It was a decent date and a second one is in the works for sometime soon.

Going to see Dane Cook with my sister innnnn..../counts....25 days!!! I'm ridiculously excited about that. "SOMEONE SHIT ON THE COATS! SOMEONE HAS SHIT...ON THE COATS!"

With the exception that the Canucks might be out of the playoff run come Monday night, life is going pretty well!

RELIEF!

Finally, I have a weekend that isn't weighed down by a ton homework! It feels good!

I had an english class today until 2pm which was quite dull. I think my prof was in a grumpy mood. He's told our group to be quiet twice in the last 2 classes haha. Maybe it's because he has a crapload of marking term papers to do or maybe it's because his wife isn't putting out enough? Who0o0o knows!

I got my tax return back which was pretty sweet! I gave a nice chunk of it to my grandparents to go towards the money I owe them for school, put some in savings so I can pay my credit card/phone bills for the next little while and kept $150 in my spending account for those random coffee outings or something. I think Phillip and I are gonna go to metrotown sometime in the next week. I wanna buy myself a new purse and get my uncle something for his birthday!

Speaking of which, my uncle was able to get tickets to the Canucks game on Sunday, so he's letting me take my little cousin Nathan. That kid is so into hockey, it's nuts. He knows more stats than I do! haha. I'm pretty excited. I was hoping to be able to go to the canucks/flames game, but colorado will have to do! We're lower bowl too! Row 20, I think!!!

Anyway, I'm off to watch some movies and chilllaaxxx!

PEACE!

K-K-razy Times

So, it's the last day of March! HURRAY! Let's hope the weather turns around!

3 more weeks until I'm done my semester! These last couple weeks, I've been silently stewing in a big pot of stress. So much homework and studying to do. So so glad I haven't been working or I'd have probably hurled myself off a bridge by now. I called a couple facilities a couple weeks ago and got a call back for a full time job at Zion. I'd told them I'd be able to start as soon as my semester is over (April 17th...too many finals and papers to write before then), so hopefully they can hold the position for me. I'll be so glad if it all works out. It's a union job that pays $21.37/hr and then benefits after a short "probation" period. I worked it out and I'd be making $1,700+ every 2 weeks before taxes, which is the going rate for care aides right now. My immediate goals are to pay off the $6,700 I owe for schooling and get myself a decent car in 6 months.

I applied for the Bachelor's of Science in Nursing Program about a month ago, and I find out if I've been accepted or not in August. It's gonna be a long 4 and a half months, but I'm confident I can get in. I'm probably going to apply at Douglas College for the same program as well to heighten my chances. After 2 years of that program, I'd be making $27/hr and when I finish, I'd be making $37-40/hr starting wage with room to go up. I'm really excited about my future in nursing. It feels so good to make something of myself! I'm the first in the family to graduate and move on to post secondary, so it's really, really fulfilling.

I recently got myself an iPhone which I totally love, got the highest mark on an english paper, scheduled my road test, hung out with some friends I haven't seen in a while, had a pretty awesome weekend house/dog sitting for my aunt and uncle AND watched the Canucks jump into first place in the northwest division. I'm pretty content with how things are going right now!

Blah

I'm in a rut. How do I get out!? Life is dull. It has no surprise or suspense. I'm a boring person with a boring life. Somebody hold me!

I'm gonna go immerse myself in chick flicks so I can live vicariously through the love stories.

so, it's 2009...

It's been a couple months since I wrote a blog, so I figured I'd update those reading on the happenings of Melissa.

I've quit my job at the care home to continue my studies in University. Starting tomorrow, I will be taking 4 pre-nursing courses; Biology, English, Psychology and Sociology at Kwantlen. Come March, I'll know if I've been accepted into the Bachelor's of Science in Nursing program. Keep your fingers crossed for me, guys. I'm hoping that being in school again will give me the chance to meet new people and experience new things. It'll be a busy 4 months, but I'm confident that I can do it!

The holidays just wrapped up and those were fun. My aunt/uncle and 2 cousins came to spend 2 weeks which was nice. I got to take my cousin Nathan to his first ever Canucks game @ GM Place. I kept it a surprise and didn't tell him where we were going until we got there. He was estatic! New Years Eve was also interesting haha. Drunken Rockband with my aunt and uncle lol. I'm not much of a drinker, so the few I had hit me where it hurt haha. The weather this past 2 weeks has been NUTS too. We've had about 2-3 feet fall so far and it's coming down like crazy right now. Oh, global warming.

I bought myself an eliptical machine at the beginning of december too, so I'm quite excited to see results with that. You can feel the difference in your energy level after a week or so. It's awesome.

Not much else is new with me, really. Life is still quite predictable.

hey child, up and go

So, I've pretty much given up looking for love and romance in my life. Many say it comes slapping you in the face when you're not looking or expecting it, so here I am, unexpecting. I've wasted time wallowing in the past and wondering all the "what ifs". It's gotten me nowhere at all, so, I'm letting it fall to the weigh-side.

Life is interesting right now. Not every exciting, but interesting nonetheless. Still working in the care home I got hired at in June, doing some online courses so I can start my Bachelor's of Nursing program soon. Pretty cut and dry, but I guess I have it better than a lot of people out there, so I can't complain.

I've taken up reading completely random peoples blogs. Creepy? probably, but it amazes me to come across people who think how I think, feel how I feel, wonder the same things I wonder. It's almost relaxing to read daily recaps of a life of someone I don't know in the least ahaha. I've been commenting as well, so if you're one of the unfortunate souls who's had me delve into your personal thoughts, I apologize, and, if we ever happen to bump into eachother and you say "hey, aren't you the crazy person who read my blog?", I'll buy you a cookie. Hahaha

Anyway, not much else to write. Maybe I'll go surfing more random blogs. Who knows.

Live, learn, laugh and love!

what the hell is wrong with me?

I'm 19 years old and I'm still holding onto the hope I had when I was 15. It's ridiculous, and I've been trying so hard to push it aside. It's eating me alive! From Brokeback Mountain, "I don't know how to quit you."

The first hug underneath the skytrain, the first letters from across the country, "the fight", the 2 yrs of uncertainty and lost contact, the apology, the first time seeing eachother in 2 years, lunch outside with the pigeons, the talk, the smooth way he grabbed my hand walking up the stairs @ the New Westminster Quay, the playfight, the hug, the stare....the kiss.

Does history repeat itself? Seems to be that way and I can't belive how much it hurts me. It's been 4 months. I don't know if I can handle another 20. I should be able to deal with this just as I have in the past, but I can't. I don't know what I've done. This is always at the back of my mind. Part of me honestly believes that one day it all won't matter, and I'll have what I truly want, but the other part thinks that may be wishful thinking and a hope of naive love that I had at 15. Where are my answers?